Why do I have to eat so much in the evening?
He always sits on top of a comfy, revolving chair, typing every experience, thought and opinion that catches his attention.
An unconventional male, frustrated cook, and a lazy artist. He hopes that you'll read and somehow relate from everything he writes.
Wait, I just saw Kuya JM! (jmbutido) in the Infirmary, or whatever they call them.
Okay so that did not have any relation to his photo.
Now the bitch is speaking. Preach ghurl!
Hahaha. Go Senator Miriam Santiago. Haha.
I honestly hate seeing grammatical errors in my posts. I always panic when I see one.
As quick as it may sound, we already found an apartment. It has wooden floors and sports a province-style window, which is elaborately decorated with Capiz shells. All I hear there were the sounds of fat chickens, situated outside of the apartment. I feel as if I were living in an isolated part of the province, which my mother really digs. Haha.
But there are several things that bother me as I stay there:
- Bullies. I know the greatest bully one can ever have is himself. But the fact that everyone in the house are boys makes me feel a bit uncomfortable. Boys are harsh and very touchy. So I must figure out a way to… I don’t know! Ugh.
- Common Bathroom. Although the small cubicles look quite beautiful, its still not my personal comfort room.
So after that visit we had, I realized I have to grow up. Like seriously. I need to speak more and be more confident in myself. Because I think, if I stay the way I am, nothing good will happen to me.
Good luck to me! Ughhhhh.
Tired, but happy!
I felt really tired after a final gathering we had with my high school friends. Tired, but happy!
So this is what happened:
- We watched two movies: The Awakening (which we skipped a lot) and Vampire Sucks (in which the audio sucked big time, that we need to read the subtitles throughout the entire movie).
- We ate a lot! Since it was a potluck party, we ate pizza, pansit, lumpia, my cookies, a cake, ice cream! and some munchkins.
- We had lots of group shots, where I felt I was in a movie premiere. Lol, though I don’t expect good shots from me. I am not photogenic.
- And of course, shared a lot of random things with each other.
Saying good bye is hard for us, for some people there, we might not possibly see for the whole year. I’ll miss my classmates!
Chocolate Chip Cookies. Again.
I could seriously eat 5 of these today. Its chewy, crispy at the edges, and perfectly sweet. The perfect cookie for me!
My beloved little bitch, Martina, is currently sick right now. We brought her to the doctor yesterday and found out that she is currently experiencing digestive problems. She has not eaten anything since Friday, so probably that’s the main reason why.
But since we don’t have much money, we were not able to confine her there. She got an anti-biotic injection instead. The medicine worked its wonder for she ate her dinner last night. Although she only consumed few grains of rice, it’s still way better than eating nothing at all.
Now she looks so bony. I wish she would get better soon.
I sometimes wonder why I have an awkward social life.
I noticed that every time I go out from church, I feel miserable.
Going there alone is not a good idea. I sat alone on the floor, awkwardly introduced myself, and felt pretty weird. It feels as if I’m unappreciated in that church. I feel secluded, and not welcome. I tried to think many times so I can figure out why, but still, I thought of nothing. I was empty. Like a puppet, answering to every question they ask me, without making an effort to keep a conversation going.
The thing about Christianity is, it’s not centered on you, but on Christ rather. I understand this, and kept on putting this in my mind. Apparently, I failed on doing so. I felt miserable because I was not able to do it. I still thought of myself every single time.
I thought that if I say everything to my previous mentor, he’ll talk to me personally. But up until now, he did not. He seems not to be interested in me anymore. Instead, I saw him mentoring other young men, besides me. That envy burns inside me. But then, I thought, “It is not about me, its about Him”
Still, I failed on putting my thoughts into action. So I ended up going home miserable. Waiting for the time when my previous mentor will spend time with me. Hoping that I’ll be able to center my life around God, and not around myself.
