So far, this summer has been pretty boring. All I did was to watch Fairy Tail (which is a very good anime by the way) and to contemplate whenever I’m left alone in the house. The same, repetitive cycle just seems to make me feel so unproductive.
The loneliness our home brings without almost anybody but my grandfather and cousin consumes me, just like what darkness does to a room once it’s light has been taken off.
Anyways, I shall stop dramatizing about all of these shit I’m feeling. I guess all I need right now is someone to talk to, which is another problem, to be honest. I assume this is because I constantly keep myself away from people. This is due to the poor treatment most people have given me way back in elementary and high school.
But in return, I feel so lonely and so empty. As if I have no idea what more can I do with my life. Oops. Okay, I shall go now.
Lord, bakit po ang gwapo ni Mikael Daez? :(
- Me: seriously though its time to pull my shit together
- Me *7 months later: seriously though its time to pull my shit together
My boredom right now signals how bored I will be this coming summer. Pssh.
So my young, little bitch (Martina) is pregnant. I actually think of it as an early and unwanted pregnancy because it seems that only half a year has just passed since we adopted her from a neighbor. Too bad she got into sex that early (I think she was raped too).
Anyways, our household feels apprehensive right now for she kept on scratching the ground as if she’s signaling that there’s this desperate need to find a shelter for her puppies. And the bad thing is, our kitchen might become a mess if she inevitably goes into labor while waiting for her food. That would not be nice.
As the saying goes, the only thing that is constant in this world is change. Just look at our climate these days. When I was a child, the days before summer were all sunny and not as rainy as it is right now. But despite these inevitable changes, here’s a list of things that I would try hard to maintain and preserve.
1. My Blog
One should realize that keeping a blog is vitally important to the evaluation of one’s self. Back reading your previous posts make you realize several things about yourself before- a feat that you cannot just get by sitting on the couch as you watch American Idol.
This blog may not be permanent, for I plan on relocating my blog on other platforms such as word press and the like. But the thing is, I’ve decided that blogging shall be something that I would preserve as much as possible despite my busy schedule.
2. My passion for food
Although my reason for enrolling in the course of Food technology seems to be shallow (I enrolled because I love to make and eat food), I believe this passion I have might fuel my desire to excel in my chosen field.
Keeping this passion may be costly, but I’ll never stop buying Yummy magazine and mastering my chosen course until food becomes something of no value. That’s how I love food.
3. My pursuit for continuous learning
Well this one’s hard to maintain. Like any student, I always dread hell weeks and is undeniably happy when summer break comes. I stuff myself with mediocrity when laziness kicks in, and struggles to wake himself out of bed for 7 am classes.
But once learning becomes an enjoyable process, I love bathing myself in it. The feeling you get from understanding several things around you not only gives you a sense of self-fulfillment, it also gives you some sort of an idea what you are capable of achieving with your newly acquired knowledge.
Many things come and go, but these are the things I would strive hard to stay with me.